why do i have to quit?

I feel so sad that i have to drop my BSA course, it's breaking my heart that soon i'll be graduating from college... I've always wanted BSA though it's hard, the feeling of passing my mod subjects gave me joy, the joy that i wouldn't find in my other subjects. I'm sad that i will not be graduating with some of my closest friends in DLSU. I've already decided but every time I think about it, I feel like crying, this is not the way i wanted my college life to end. I fear getting out of school, i fear losing connection with them.... I hate growing up! :(